Pieces Worth Keeping

My sis came over today - mom's helping her sew up some renaissance clothes for the faires this summer.

I feel stuck one minute and hopeful the next. I feel like I will never be able to take the first steps to fix my problems.

My account will be overdrawn, or a check will bounce completely, when MBNA tries to post it tomorrow. I was supposed to call to tell them not to, but I never did. Meanwhile, my boss is a bitch and is making my job a nightmare. I used to like working there, but now I dread going in.

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Dream to remember 1/17/05

Awesome dream in which I was at what seemed like a flea market or garage sail in an onld house full of junk. So i find this deks with many drawers and boxes everywhere and it’s FULL of witchy stuff, crystals, ancient books, etc. So I start filling bags and boxes to the brim with this amaxing stuff, evading this old lady, maybe the owner, whio doesn’t want me to take the “bad stuff>” Then laster I own the desk and we all live in a very large, old mansion, and I am a fairly young woman, new there, and it’s long ago and the old lady is my grandma. And she’s mean and evil. And I go to look outside at powerl ines ets and I dont know what they are. So the old lady gets dragged off to bed by other family members while she threatens me, but i am not afraid because even tho we all know she has powerful magic she cant hurt me because she can’t hurt a fam member. Later there is a man who might be my bf or fiance or husband and she is zapping him with bolts. she is very angry all the time in this dream, really enraged. so i go to protect the man and am not scared cause she cant hurt me.

I had =anoither dream where kat, who had just had a baby, was going to be a model or something. so we all sleep over together in this big place. and there are tons of male and female fashion models there and i am so jealous & intimidated. So the rest of us go to this HUGE HUGE mall sort of place and there’s a huge crowd and we are using cool fake electronic weapons to learn how to fiught like in lotr i guess so we can be xtras there. mom, dad, dob even. Then I leave to go back to get some $$ but the place is so huge that I get lost. confusing and large and many many people there.

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I didn't do much today. I mostly slept and now I'm trying to get my computer organized so I can burn DVD's again. Right now there isn't enough memory. Where did it all go?

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Well, I feel better today, which is stupid because I've done nothing to actually help my problem. But in my life, you gotta take the happiness when you can get it.

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I'm in a crapload of trouble, folks, and right now I'm just trying not to panic. Worst part is, it's all my own damn fault. See, I'm in debt. Lots of debt. And I can't pay it off. And I have been ignoring creditors and not paying for a long time. I need help, but I'm so terrified I don't know where to begin. To make matters worse, I live with people whom I DO NOT want to know about my problem. Cripes, how do get myself out of this mess??

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